"Have you danced with the Devil in the pale moonlight?" A question that would probably not make any kind of sense to you, but to a demented son of a bitch like me, kinda makes a lot of sense. While that line is from the 1989 film, Batman (one of my personal favorites), it's something that I've carved a bit of a niche with. See, I'm a hunter and from time to time, I like to go out on the hunt. Now the difference between traditional hunting and my version is that I don't harm any prey of the lower rungs of the Animal Kingdom. I stick to the top of the food chain, where the species Homo Sapiens resides. YES, I GET A FUCKING THRILL OUT OF HUNTING THE FUCK OUT OF HUMANITY!! UNLIKE HUMANS THOUGH, I choose not to kill my prey. I don't even choose to harm them. MY version of hunting is just a simple test of my ninjutsu skills that I've been training with for the last 16 from my sensei. I've worked different elements into my hunting style that has definitely given me an edge over my prey since 2008.
Why did I even mention this in the first place? A couple reasons. The first and foremost being that I WANNA FUCKING HUNT!!! I wanna be out there in the concrete jungle. I wanna hunt in the midst of night with rain falling down all around me. I wanna tag my prey and try to catch up to them and "capture" them in the midst of honing my skills should the need arise for them later on in the future (1 of the mottos that I live by is "Chance favors the prepared mind."). The second reason is because I want to be able pass on these same skills to my children and so on and so forth, thus ensuring my legacy and legend forever lives on.
The 3rd and probably most personal reason why I mentioned it? It gives me a chance to journey inwards of myself. I and those who know me have LONG known about the second presence that inhabits my body and the deepest, darkest recesses of my mind. It gives me the chance to talk to the Joker that's in me. It gives me a better understanding of my triggers and what causes me to blackout and why I always come to with the news that I've committed some kind of unwanted destruction without my realizing it. It gives me the chance to understand that side of me and helps me in better controlling that aspect of me.
ALL IN ALL, I've always known that I'm a batshit crazy bastard. I'm the first to admit that I have issues and that I'm trying my best to deal with them and better understand them so that I can become that much better and reduce the number of relapses. I know I have my shortcomings, but I'm man enough to look myself in the mirror and look anybody in the eye and admit that shit. Can you do that?
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