It's raining here. It's such a beautiful thing to me. So soothing. So calming. I love listening to the rain hit against the house. I personally love to drive by the lakefront when it's storming and take it all in. The comfortable breeze. The amazingly earthy smell of the rain falling. The natural firework show that nature is putting on in the form of lightning and thunder. I cant think of too many things that get much better than this. It's always during these times that I find myself looking towards the horizon of the lake, looking at the storm gain a bit of strength over the lake and, if I'm lucky, I’ll usually wait for the back half of the storm to come through and provide more rain for me. The calmness of this moment brings forth so much serenity in my spirit. Almost like I'm living in a dreamworld where there's nothing but peace. Harmonious peace. It's in this moment, that I'm brought to this world and it's often very bright, but I can reshape this world into anything I want.
So, 'Describe to me a dream...' It's simple. We're in Bali. We've enjoyed the day and did all our tourist things. It's night and it's a gorgeous night out. We've eaten amazingly. We've laughed and joked and we've zip lined through the forest 'where fear is buried deep.' We caught a local show 'Where Fire Clears the Way,' the fire wizard was dazzling, doing all sorts of tricks that had everyone deeply enthralled and captivated. Almost like he was a shepherd there to 'lead the errant sheep.' It was something that was interesting to watch, but something that I wasn't too much interested in, mostly because of the beautiful woman that was standing next to me and my interest in her. We decide to leave the show and walk back down the ocean walk, taking in the almost Van Gogh painted skyline that the Earth granted us to see, an absolutely beautiful sunset. Looking at the one of the important life bloods of our world dip below the horizon, you could see how it 'followed closely to the line.' The one thing that I wanted you to see, that you ended up looking at me crazy for was me pulling out 2 pairs of solar eclipse glasses. You asked why would you need those and I responded, 'Wear your Blinders.' "You'll love looking at the sun like this because it will block out everything else except that and you could see the Sun in its full glory." As you put them on and stared in disbelief at how beautiful the sun was through your glasses, something in my head whispered to me, 'Listen to the devils in your mind.'
I couldn't for the life of me figure out why that was a thought that crossed my mind, but I paid no attention to it and went back to enjoying my time with you as if nothing had just happened and us enjoying the beautiful scenery that was around us. With the setting of one celestial body, came the rising with another. The full moon rising was completely awe inspiring. We both wanted to get closer to seeing outside of our hotel room that was on the ocean, so we ran to the ledge to take in all of the beauty of it. As I'm sitting there watching this beautiful rising moon, I see the happiness on your beautiful face myself. It's at this point I'm realizing that we have yet to kiss each other by this point, and it hit me that 'the ledge is narrow still" and that I'm nervous as fuck about doing it. I know that my 'knees are old and weak' and all, but kissing you seems like a big ass deal. ONLY because I want it to be perfect. I know that there's no such thing as such, but the way that it plays out in my dreams, you look at me after it's over and decide to go in for another because you liked that one so much. 'And in the air a chill' comes over us, but not because it was cool outside. But because talking to you and looking at you brings me butterflies and gives me goosebumps because I simply adore you and cant get enough of you. Being in your presence is such an exhilarating thing. I love your laugh. I love how attentive you are. I can't help but be enamored with your smile. It's amazingly tantalizing and I cant get enough of it. As we continued our usually all over the place conversation, we were interrupted by a loud boom. We jumped up and looked out to see what was going on and we were greeted to a spectacular light show over our hotel, that with the backdrop of the full moon behind it, looked gorgeous. 'A chasm wide and deep' that was worth the interruption.
Once again, in my head, a voice was saying to me, "Follow closely to the line...wear your blinders, listen to the devils in your mind. I couldn't understand what any of that meant, but it did finally strike me as something important that I needed to heed and that I needed to take hold of. It played over and over and over in my head while the fireworks were blasting off. Yes, they were absolutely beautiful and I did my oohs and ahhs, but that particular phrase just kept replaying over and over in my head. Just then, while you were still watching the fireworks, I heard a lady scream out to her friend, "TAKE A LEAP OF FAITH AND LIVE BEFORE YOU DIE!!" It was just then as I heard that that I remembered something that's stayed with me all this time. "The present isn't safe. Seconds crash like waves brought on by the tide." It was there that everything clicked and I knew what I had to do.
As you were still enjoying the light show, I walk up to you, look you deep in your beautiful brown eyes. I lose myself in them a little bit before I get my courage up to slowly and sensually, give you a kiss. You must have wondered what the fuck took me so damn long because you wrapped your arms around my head and gave me one hell of a passionate embrace as you kissed me deeply. Us sharing a kiss under the moonlight, with the fireworks and ocean in the backdrop, in Bali of all places, is a dream. A fairly recent dream, but it's still the one I see when I'm transported to that place.
As the storm passes and I come back to reality, I can still feel that kiss on my lips as if it happened just moments ago. It felt so real. It still feels so real. It's a dream that I can constantly recall. It makes me smile every time I think about it. This entry right here is 'The Witness' to it...
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