Bella Pace

As I start to put the words to this place

I know that there is 1 last thing I must face

I know what's been haunting me for long

Time to kill it with the knell of the final gong

I'm afraid of losing you. Of the past repeating again

I don't care what you have to say, it's my nightmare that wont end

I'm afraid that I wont feel your love or see you fight for me

Maybe you feel it's pointless or that I'm not worth it, a horrible reality

I don't blame you 1 bit, I've caused so much trouble

So it's fitting that you leave me to my death, dying in the rubble

It plays over & over, you're happy without me, why bother?

This is a crying and trying time, so I MUST call out to my Father

Father, Father, I hope You can hear me, it's your son calling out

At this point, I don't care if I have to scream or shout

Father, Father, why have You forsaken me?

I cant nor do I want to live like this, with fear overtaking me

I've grown tired of depression, trying anyway I can to be happy

It seems like You're up on Your throne in Heaven laughing at me

Father, Father, why have You forsaken me?

Is this my punishment that I can finally now see?

Father, Father, You made me a promise, is it still true?

If so, what is it that I have to do?

What must I do to get back to you?

So once again, it's You and me and me and You

Father, into Your hands I commit my spirit

It's something that You've wanted all this time

Father, into Your hands I commit my spirit

I don't wanna be even more lost down the line

Father, regain Your place in my life, it's something that I need

It's only because of You that You put me in a position to succeed

Because of You, for You, only You could make that miracle happen

We both know that I'm much better off now than I was back then

Father, Father, Your love and shield are what I need now

I don't know how this can be beat, but with You, there's a way somehow

Father, Father, I know that without You, I cannot win this race

So infuse me with Your spirit and bestow upon me Your Bella Pace

A Lonely, Dark Road

I thought everything was gonna be OK
I thought we were gonna finally see our day
Thought that the bullshit was over
Not having to deal with shit no longer

Turns out I was wrong
Turns out it's still the same song
Turns out this song is on repeat
So I'm gonna sit back and have a seat

Sit and watch how it all plays out
Wondering if we will scream and shout
Thinking now is it once again the end
I've lost my lover, but yet I'm still her friend

I wanna talk but no one will listen.
People hear me, but I only get part of their attention
Back to the ashes that were past issues
Back to you leaving again and leaving me to miss you

I wont or will not ever do that again
So if that happens, so long my friend.
I wont again feel the hurt or the pain
If you walk this time, I wont look back again

I'll just have to face this lonely and dark road ahead
I can admit that it's something that I will dread
I love you, but I refuse to go or think about this again
But I hope that you still love me and that this wont have to end

I've never felt more lonelier than I do right now
I hope that it can end somehow.
Hopefully, you'll see and truly appreciate me
Otherwise, somehow, someway, again you'll lose me

I know that you can find someone else
Who I know, since they're there, it would truly be heartfelt
Maybe your mom was right, you really aren't in love with me
Maybe she's right, I'm just a convenience and you need to be free

I never want to hold you back
I dont wanna be the cause of you having lack
You deserve the best, something that's always been known
You truly are a queen and you'll ascend to your throne

Someone, somewhere loves you and you love them
You should be with them and each other you should love and hold
I'm a person who gives and never gets, I know that now, so as the tears fall,
I'm already used to it, and once again, I'll face this dark and lonely road.