The Free Woman

C - Charming


H - Honorable


A - Amazing


R - Ravishing


L - Loving


I - Icon


Z - Zealous


E - Elegant




C - Courageous


H - Heavenly


R - Romantic


I - Intelligent


S - Sexy


T - Talented


I - Incredible


A - Awesome


N - Noble


A - Angelic




These qualities are just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to describing the woman who holds my heart, no matter what. Even these words are not enough to speak on how caring, kind, selfless, and such a beautiful spirit this woman is. I've tried my damnest to give this woman the space she's wanted. I've tried to help her in getting the closure that she wanted so that she could be happy with her new man. But even in doing the right thing and loving her so much to let her go & be happy and let her live her life, I still want her to know that I love her so much and I will never stop loving her. 


She's the only woman to ever hold my heart like this and the Yahweh given truth of the matter is, even though I feel like I did the right thing, something still speaks in me saying that you haven't lost her and that she's coming back to you. I honestly don't know what's gonna happen and I'm tired of my mind and heart at war and constantly ripping me apart. I'm an emotional wreck. I'm not who I used to be anymore, both in a good and bad perspective. I honestly don't know where my life is gonna turn and I've been down in the dark abyss for what seems like endless eons and eternities. Whether Yahweh restores me to a place I've never known or He leaves me in the abyss to die and forgets about me, I don't know. The only thing I can say is that I miss you and I love you, now and forever, my Angel of the night...