Why Do It?

Before I kick this off, I first gotta define a few words as they will be a part of this...

1) Trust: as a noun...reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.

as a verb...to have confidence; hope

2) Lie: a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth

3) Deception: something that deceives or is intended to deceive; fraud; artifice.

4)Betrayal: to be unfaithful in guarding, maintaining, or fulfilling; to disappoint the hopes or expectations of; be disloyal to

Ok now dig this...the reason that I chose to define those words first before getting into it was because it's amazing how 3 of them I've dealt with SOOOOO much in my life that it's like we're brothers or at least best potnas or close cousins or some shit. And the 1 that I want the most in my life, and it sometimes seems to be there, aint nothing but an illusion that always keeps popping up in and out of my life, almost telling me that I'm destined to never trust anyone. I know that it's true and I've known it for a while, but it just never ceases to amaze me. It's amazing how the 1s that are the closest to you can fuck you up 10x worse than your worst enemy could ever dream of doing.

It's like, why the fuck would you put yourself through the shit of keeping the shit bottling in and going the fuck around it when you can just come out and say what you need to. For 1, you dont know how the person is gonna react. Of course, they will be upset or even pissed, that much is a given. But, just coming out and saying what you need to say right there, 1...it's a LOT of nervousness that's relieved from you first off.. and 2...instead of tryin to cover that lie with another lie and that lie with another lie, The truth would just be simply so much easier. Im fuckin sick of the lying, I'm fuckin sick of the secrets, I'm fuckin sick of the bullshit. Im sick and tired of it all. From this sentence on out, if nobody else can start being real with me, then it aint no fuckin point in us talking or communicating no more. Everybody says that they want to surround themselves with "real" people or they only fuck with "real" people. I got 2 questions to that...How can you determine who the fuck is real around you or not? and the other...Instead of surrounding yourself with "real" people who lie to prove themselves "real," Why not just surround yourself with honest people? Those kind of people have no problem just telling it how it is, regardless of how it's presented or if it hurts. Those are the GENUINE "real" people.