2 Beings, 1 Body

2 parts of the same person. That's the best way that I can use to describe the war that goes on inside me. King vs. The Joker. If I could tell anybody else that, they would think that I'm crazy, but that's all I can say that it is. I mean it's almost an everyday struggle sometimes. The evil in me that tries to overtake the good. The good side is in control, but sometimes, it's hard to resist the call of my dark side. To define each side, King is the overall good natured me. I carry myself as a King should. Im the goofy guy everybody knows, I'm the helpful person that everybody knows. The king that's laid back, playing video games, going to work, going to school, and that everybody knows that they can depend on in times of a crisis. I'm the guy that people look at and can see the good in, regardless of how much they say that I'm crazy and violent, lol. I'm simply the King people can depend on to take the lead when time calls for it.

But there are times where the King in me disappears, and then all goodness leaves me. That tends to happen when I get upset or mad, angry, or it's taken to rage. I'm always hoping that I never get to the rage level because then, something happens that I never wanna bring out or could never bring down on my worst enemy, even if I wanted to or tried to.

Enter the Joker. The side of me that's nothing but a pure evil, sadistic, and violent psychopath. From the inner most machinations of my mind comes the most twisted and pure illogical side of me that greatly contrasts with my King side. If the King side stands for good, does good things, and values the world and everything in it, then The Joker is the exact complete opposite of that. That side of me, represents every evil thought that I've ever had, is the reason that I've done the bad and horrible things that I have. and would get a kick out of watching the world burn and enjoys proving that human life is nothing more than the world's biggest joke. He is the manifestation of my anger that is put to human form and for a being like that to take control of my mind sometimes, it's so scary because for as intelligent as I already am, to use that for evil and violence instead of using it to be beneficial to both myself and the world is something straight out of a horror movie.

Fortunately, like I said, that side of me is kept in check by the fact that I don't allow a lot of things to bother me anymore. But still, knowing that a monster like that lurks inside you, it's thrilling, intriguing, yet terrifying all at the same time. It's something that we must all deal with, regardless of who says they have a side like this or any kind of side at all, regardless of what it is. I can say that I have a side like this that can set the world to flames if he, I, or hell even WE chose to do it. I can stand on my own 2 and say that I have a side like this. Can you?