Can this be? Did it really happen? How could this possibly happen? I saw him die. They saw him die. We all saw him die. It's not possible! It cant be. It just cant be!! Well the fact of the matter is this. We all saw him die, but it seems as though a great lesson was just taught. Greatness cannot be killed and a true legend doesn't just go quietly into the night.
Get the dust out of your eyes and look clearly at the sight before you. Behold the legendary warrior himself. Like warriors before him or like a phoenix rising from his own ashes, the proud warrior has risen from his grave. Some wonder how it happened, some wonder why. I say to those who question it, dont worry about it. The king is back and to me, that's all that matters. I thought my spirit was broken for good, but it turns out that God always has something else up His sleeve and what I thought was my spirit breaking was actually Him strengthening it to unimaginable levels now. The level to where Jesus has taken it makes me feel as though I can do anything and EVERYTHING.
I feel as though I can literally fly or that I can web-sling and scale buildings like Spider-man can. I feel like I can break through anything with a single punch or that if I gather enough momentum, nothing can stop me, like the legendary, unstoppable Juggernaut. This warrior has risen and is now stronger than ever. Now is the time. The time has come for me to reclaim my titles as King of the Battleground and The Dragon of the West
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
Death of a Legend
Here Lies the spirit of Blade.
He was bruised, bloody, beaten and broken.
He was trampled upon, spit upon, looked down on, and destroyed.
Constantly betrayed, constantly lied to, constantly taken advantage of.
Son of betrayal, Cousin of deception, best friend of lies.
Gave his all for nothing but emptiness.
Protected those that weren't worth protecting.
Took wounds and spilled blood over people that should have took it in his place.
Time in the hospital he can never get back because of those worthless people.
His blood was wasted that could have been used to keep it pumping to his heart.
But wasted on the fools who he thought were closer to him than his own family.
It's said time heals all wounds. It may be true for most people, but even time cant heal the death of a once proud man. So here lies the spirit of Blade, a once, proud, loyal, and fierce warrior. He was able to stand up to any challenge that was given to him.
But even this mighty warrior succumbed to the weaknesses that were his emotions. Love, loyalty, respect, trustworthy, it all dies with him. And the cause of legendary warrior's death? A woman who he thought that he was close to. Could rely on and talk about anything with. A woman that had a piece of his heart. But ended up stabbing him in the 1 thing that he swore he would never give out again...
He was bruised, bloody, beaten and broken.
He was trampled upon, spit upon, looked down on, and destroyed.
Constantly betrayed, constantly lied to, constantly taken advantage of.
Son of betrayal, Cousin of deception, best friend of lies.
Gave his all for nothing but emptiness.
Protected those that weren't worth protecting.
Took wounds and spilled blood over people that should have took it in his place.
Time in the hospital he can never get back because of those worthless people.
His blood was wasted that could have been used to keep it pumping to his heart.
But wasted on the fools who he thought were closer to him than his own family.
It's said time heals all wounds. It may be true for most people, but even time cant heal the death of a once proud man. So here lies the spirit of Blade, a once, proud, loyal, and fierce warrior. He was able to stand up to any challenge that was given to him.
But even this mighty warrior succumbed to the weaknesses that were his emotions. Love, loyalty, respect, trustworthy, it all dies with him. And the cause of legendary warrior's death? A woman who he thought that he was close to. Could rely on and talk about anything with. A woman that had a piece of his heart. But ended up stabbing him in the 1 thing that he swore he would never give out again...
Why Do It?
Before I kick this off, I first gotta define a few words as they will be a part of this...
1) Trust: as a noun...reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
as a verb...to have confidence; hope
2) Lie: a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth
3) Deception: something that deceives or is intended to deceive; fraud; artifice.
4)Betrayal: to be unfaithful in guarding, maintaining, or fulfilling; to disappoint the hopes or expectations of; be disloyal to
Ok now dig this...the reason that I chose to define those words first before getting into it was because it's amazing how 3 of them I've dealt with SOOOOO much in my life that it's like we're brothers or at least best potnas or close cousins or some shit. And the 1 that I want the most in my life, and it sometimes seems to be there, aint nothing but an illusion that always keeps popping up in and out of my life, almost telling me that I'm destined to never trust anyone. I know that it's true and I've known it for a while, but it just never ceases to amaze me. It's amazing how the 1s that are the closest to you can fuck you up 10x worse than your worst enemy could ever dream of doing.
It's like, why the fuck would you put yourself through the shit of keeping the shit bottling in and going the fuck around it when you can just come out and say what you need to. For 1, you dont know how the person is gonna react. Of course, they will be upset or even pissed, that much is a given. But, just coming out and saying what you need to say right there, 1...it's a LOT of nervousness that's relieved from you first off.. and 2...instead of tryin to cover that lie with another lie and that lie with another lie, The truth would just be simply so much easier. Im fuckin sick of the lying, I'm fuckin sick of the secrets, I'm fuckin sick of the bullshit. Im sick and tired of it all. From this sentence on out, if nobody else can start being real with me, then it aint no fuckin point in us talking or communicating no more. Everybody says that they want to surround themselves with "real" people or they only fuck with "real" people. I got 2 questions to that...How can you determine who the fuck is real around you or not? and the other...Instead of surrounding yourself with "real" people who lie to prove themselves "real," Why not just surround yourself with honest people? Those kind of people have no problem just telling it how it is, regardless of how it's presented or if it hurts. Those are the GENUINE "real" people.
1) Trust: as a noun...reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
as a verb...to have confidence; hope
2) Lie: a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth
3) Deception: something that deceives or is intended to deceive; fraud; artifice.
4)Betrayal: to be unfaithful in guarding, maintaining, or fulfilling; to disappoint the hopes or expectations of; be disloyal to
Ok now dig this...the reason that I chose to define those words first before getting into it was because it's amazing how 3 of them I've dealt with SOOOOO much in my life that it's like we're brothers or at least best potnas or close cousins or some shit. And the 1 that I want the most in my life, and it sometimes seems to be there, aint nothing but an illusion that always keeps popping up in and out of my life, almost telling me that I'm destined to never trust anyone. I know that it's true and I've known it for a while, but it just never ceases to amaze me. It's amazing how the 1s that are the closest to you can fuck you up 10x worse than your worst enemy could ever dream of doing.
It's like, why the fuck would you put yourself through the shit of keeping the shit bottling in and going the fuck around it when you can just come out and say what you need to. For 1, you dont know how the person is gonna react. Of course, they will be upset or even pissed, that much is a given. But, just coming out and saying what you need to say right there, 1...it's a LOT of nervousness that's relieved from you first off.. and 2...instead of tryin to cover that lie with another lie and that lie with another lie, The truth would just be simply so much easier. Im fuckin sick of the lying, I'm fuckin sick of the secrets, I'm fuckin sick of the bullshit. Im sick and tired of it all. From this sentence on out, if nobody else can start being real with me, then it aint no fuckin point in us talking or communicating no more. Everybody says that they want to surround themselves with "real" people or they only fuck with "real" people. I got 2 questions to that...How can you determine who the fuck is real around you or not? and the other...Instead of surrounding yourself with "real" people who lie to prove themselves "real," Why not just surround yourself with honest people? Those kind of people have no problem just telling it how it is, regardless of how it's presented or if it hurts. Those are the GENUINE "real" people.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
2 Beings, 1 Body
2 parts of the same person. That's the best way that I can use to describe the war that goes on inside me. King vs. The Joker. If I could tell anybody else that, they would think that I'm crazy, but that's all I can say that it is. I mean it's almost an everyday struggle sometimes. The evil in me that tries to overtake the good. The good side is in control, but sometimes, it's hard to resist the call of my dark side. To define each side, King is the overall good natured me. I carry myself as a King should. Im the goofy guy everybody knows, I'm the helpful person that everybody knows. The king that's laid back, playing video games, going to work, going to school, and that everybody knows that they can depend on in times of a crisis. I'm the guy that people look at and can see the good in, regardless of how much they say that I'm crazy and violent, lol. I'm simply the King people can depend on to take the lead when time calls for it.
But there are times where the King in me disappears, and then all goodness leaves me. That tends to happen when I get upset or mad, angry, or it's taken to rage. I'm always hoping that I never get to the rage level because then, something happens that I never wanna bring out or could never bring down on my worst enemy, even if I wanted to or tried to.
Enter the Joker. The side of me that's nothing but a pure evil, sadistic, and violent psychopath. From the inner most machinations of my mind comes the most twisted and pure illogical side of me that greatly contrasts with my King side. If the King side stands for good, does good things, and values the world and everything in it, then The Joker is the exact complete opposite of that. That side of me, represents every evil thought that I've ever had, is the reason that I've done the bad and horrible things that I have. and would get a kick out of watching the world burn and enjoys proving that human life is nothing more than the world's biggest joke. He is the manifestation of my anger that is put to human form and for a being like that to take control of my mind sometimes, it's so scary because for as intelligent as I already am, to use that for evil and violence instead of using it to be beneficial to both myself and the world is something straight out of a horror movie.
Fortunately, like I said, that side of me is kept in check by the fact that I don't allow a lot of things to bother me anymore. But still, knowing that a monster like that lurks inside you, it's thrilling, intriguing, yet terrifying all at the same time. It's something that we must all deal with, regardless of who says they have a side like this or any kind of side at all, regardless of what it is. I can say that I have a side like this that can set the world to flames if he, I, or hell even WE chose to do it. I can stand on my own 2 and say that I have a side like this. Can you?
But there are times where the King in me disappears, and then all goodness leaves me. That tends to happen when I get upset or mad, angry, or it's taken to rage. I'm always hoping that I never get to the rage level because then, something happens that I never wanna bring out or could never bring down on my worst enemy, even if I wanted to or tried to.
Enter the Joker. The side of me that's nothing but a pure evil, sadistic, and violent psychopath. From the inner most machinations of my mind comes the most twisted and pure illogical side of me that greatly contrasts with my King side. If the King side stands for good, does good things, and values the world and everything in it, then The Joker is the exact complete opposite of that. That side of me, represents every evil thought that I've ever had, is the reason that I've done the bad and horrible things that I have. and would get a kick out of watching the world burn and enjoys proving that human life is nothing more than the world's biggest joke. He is the manifestation of my anger that is put to human form and for a being like that to take control of my mind sometimes, it's so scary because for as intelligent as I already am, to use that for evil and violence instead of using it to be beneficial to both myself and the world is something straight out of a horror movie.
Fortunately, like I said, that side of me is kept in check by the fact that I don't allow a lot of things to bother me anymore. But still, knowing that a monster like that lurks inside you, it's thrilling, intriguing, yet terrifying all at the same time. It's something that we must all deal with, regardless of who says they have a side like this or any kind of side at all, regardless of what it is. I can say that I have a side like this that can set the world to flames if he, I, or hell even WE chose to do it. I can stand on my own 2 and say that I have a side like this. Can you?
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